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Tunnel of Struggle

Over the past year or so, I’ve been part of a weekly prayer call. Each Wednesday, Christians from around the world gather both in-person and online to join together in prayer.

It was intimidating at first because I felt like I was watching people who were at a completely different level, spiritually, than me. But, I believe God led me to this call, so I’ve persisted. Now, I haven’t joined every week, but I’ve tried my best to join when I remember.

The reason God had me join was to be part of a corporate prayer gathering – to be united through prayer with others who believe in Jesus. The other reason was to teach me to listen, and interpret.

We pray in the spirit, speaking in tongues (Acts 2). The teacher prays in tongues while another teacher interprets. Since I am only listening in via phone, I can both pray aloud and learn to interpret. The latter is what God is teaching me through this.

I take notes each week that I join and download. The teachers encourage us to meditate on what was said during each prayer call throughout the rest of the week. Well…I at least download the notes.


After a recent call, I decided it was time for me to print out all of my notes. Despite running out of paper a few times, I managed to get them all printed out.

As I re-read them, I came across something the Lord strongly impressed upon me tonight. It said, “There are those who are digging their way out of the tunnels. Pray for My light to guide their way.”

Immediately, one person came to mind. Then another. Then another. I pictured them, in their current struggles, trying to dig their way out of the tunnel. They put themselves there, and now they were trying to get out.

Why don’t they just let God help them? was my thought. They struggle and struggle and struggle some more. They make choices that aren’t right. They choose their own path. They don’t seek God “properly” or “daily”, and they find themselves in positions of hopelessness, frustration, despondency.

No wonder they’re in a tunnel.

No sooner had I started heading down the rabbit trail of judgment when I stopped.

How many times did my choices took me down a path of struggle? I don’t always seek God or read His word as much as “I think” I should. How often have I run ahead and done things my way, only to become frustrated at “why God isn’t helping me” in it?

And then, when I’m in the middle of the struggle, I can’t see a way out. I’m stuck…in a never ending tunnel of struggle.


Tonight, I pray.

I pray for those in the tunnel of struggle, that they would see the light on the path to the way out. I pray that your mind would be released of all darkness. I pray your thoughts would no longer betray the truth that you know in you hearts. I pray that you would be consumed with the love and grace of God. May His presence remind you that you, and all you do, matter to Him.

14 For this reason I bow my knees before the Father, 15 from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name, 16 that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with power through His Spirit in the inner man, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; and that you, being rooted and grounded in love, 18 may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, 19 and to know the love of Christ which surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled up to all the fullness of God.

Ephesians 3:14-19 (ESV)


Knees Down, Prayers Up